The Soul Crossing book is currently in edit  -  Available in 2020.
 
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"Bright blasts of mystical wisdom reminiscent of Emily Dickinson"
 
 Doug Mcgill - Founder / Rochester Meditation Center

I Know Who You Are  (Lyrics - awaiting music)

In sadness, in silence

I know who you are

Try to run from the whispers

But you never get far

And I’ve met all your demons

I’ve seen where they hide

I know that you feed them

And I understand why

[Transition/Chorus]

But I think that there's more

It's just hidden from sight

I guess maybe we find it

When the moment is right

[End Trans]

In satin and shadows

I know where you’ve been

Always diving for covers

As the night crashes in

& I heard the confession

From your small crowd of sins

I was there at the temple

As you ushered them in

[Transition/Chorus]

But I'm sure that there’s more

Somewhere deep in the night

Where the secrets all go

When the moon is too bright

[End transition]

And the dark-hooded thief

That ran off with your smiles

Well, I know where he lives

(&) why he’s living in style

​ 

Yes, I stood by the gallows

With your future in doubt

And I heard all the screams

That could never get out

[Transition/Chorus]

But I know that there’s more

It just waits in the night

I guess maybe alone

It’s afraid of the light

[End transition]

Endless Flight

Complete dependence, the soul's release

Temptation and pain, the guiding forces

A jagged path that leads to peace

Through sacred lands go untamed horses

Panting struggles on perilous hills

Workers enslaved by works, at birth

And storms that breed the earthly thrills

Now wash the trail of crumbling earth

Collapse, despair, the throbbing terror

As hooves sink deep in earthly pain

The gasps of lungs that thirst for air

But find instead, the blackened rains

Unconscious mouths then drink of wine

Now flowing from a distant world

Revealing man to the divine

And to divinity, the soul unfurled

Deathly shudders release the spirit

Now swirling in the morning light

The weakened soul, drawing near it

Collapses into endless flight

I AM

I am a secret that I couldn't keep

The dreams of the dreamer who talks in his sleep

Safe but unseen in the depths of the night

I am the shadow that runs for the light

 

I am the answer, still trying to learn

The reason that fire can never be burned

Born into riches, like the prodigal son

I wander the earth as if I have none

Naked and hungry, I cover the land

In search of a beggar with a mirror in his hand

He knows who I am

He knows who I am

The Prisoner

The soul has a wondrous story to tell

Of an innocent child locked deep in a cell

He's told he is sentenced because he is broken

A verdict returned before he had spoken

With the judge and the jury thinking they knew

That acceptance demands you mustn't be you

They left him in darkness, trying to find

A kingdom existing solely in mind

The child is most patient, his sentence not death

He'll wait here in silence, a voice without breath

He knows they'll return since peace is forbidden

To those seeking treasure beyond where it's hidden

They'll search for their kingdom but won't understand

That the key to its entrance is here in his hand

In time they will tire with a weariness of mind

And then in their depths, his secret they'll find

Returning at once, with contrition and pleas

But all that he asks, is the trading of keys

Kingdom of Soul

The soul has penned a tale of a kingdom deep inside

A land that's not for sale, where peace and joy reside

It's not a gentle place, the soil there must be tilled

We need some empty space, in order to be filled

Could I truly bear the cost, for me it seemed to great

So I wandered with the lost, in circles round the gate

But my legs had grown so weak, with hunger prowling near

So my soul had come to speak, if I had come to hear

She told me she had tried to lead me back her way

With tender words she cried, 'just look how much you pay'

'You can't outrun the pain, for when you try to flee

It finds you once again, to bring you back to me'

'For pain had come to call with a golden key in hand

By walking through it all, it opens to this land'

She said the choice was mine, there was no easy way

Like running from a fine, in either case you pay

'But if you bear the cost, you'll get more than you know

You'll never wander lost, no matter where you go'

So I hunted down the fear and made the costly deal

It's now so very clear, this kingdom that I feel

I see the pearly gates, and have the golden key

In wonder she awaits, it's such a sight to see

White and Turbid Wake

(Line form Moby Dick)

"I leave a white and turbid wake"

Cast my fate upon the stars

Not sure why I’ve given chase

Or just what the dangers are

 

Might be a white whale or a ghost

Might roam the forest or the sea

Might raise a dagger or a toast

To the deepest parts of me

 

It’s the night that leads me on

As it cloaks the mystery

Is it the moon now or the dawn

That’s the greater friend to me

 

[Chorus Goes Here or after 2nd set of vs.]

 

It’s been months now since I sailed

But it feels like years to me

Guess time crawls when you’re jailed

(Or) when you’re not who you want to be

 

Is that a shadow in the night

Yeah, perhaps the time is here

I could tell if I had more light

I could see without the tears

 

I leave a white and turbid wake

Heading for a vast unknown

It’s a call I can’t forsake

I can feel it in my bones

 

[Chorus Goes Here]

Emily

Because I could not stop for death

He kindly stopped for me

It wasn't quite my time just yet

But he left with Emily

I still feel his hands, & I know his plans

Haven't changed much to this day

& I'm pretty sure, that there is no cure

For the ones that get away

 

Chorus /

Oh, sweet soul, you're finally free

But you're still here with me //

On the carriage ride, once you're inside

The journey isn't all that long

Where you're going to, it depends on you

You won't hear that in a song

 

But I think you'll find that the night is kind

& much lighter than the day

As the carriage fades & they pull the shades

I bet they're laughing to this day

(Bridge)

The sun will rise & the sun will set

It's never about how far you get

It's 'bout who you love on the way

You have not lived in vain  //

Poetry.....

It's a question that starts...

In the depths of our hearts...

Where the pain's paired with word...

That it finally be heard...

By the heavens above...

That it may ask of love...

"Why must you remain,

Both healer and pain?"

Something I’ve Lost

 

I feel like I’m looking for something I’ve lost

It’s vague and its shy but the scent fills the air

Yet there’s always a void that I can’t get across

Seems like everyone else is already there

 

It feels like I’m losing, whenever I win

Like the game that we’re playing, (it) just isn’t mine

The curtain goes up and its showtime again

But I can’t act the part, no one gave me the lines

 

[Chorus Will Go Here]

 

Not sure why I'm searching for meaning at all

Never comes into focus, it's never quite clear

When you wait by the phone, seems like nobody calls

And the louder I question, the less I can hear

 

I feel like a pilgrim, can’t find my way home

And all of the streets, they no longer have names

Some look familiar, and some are unknown

But they never lead back, not the way that I came

The Tragically Blessed

 

The lame and the wicked

Are left minding the store

With the old hound of heaven

Asleep by the door

 

& The artists, and poets   

The sultans of strange

Are handing out treasure    

While (they're) begging for change

 

[Chorus will go here]

 

The terminally gifted

The tragically blessed

No crime's been committed

But still they confess

 

The light in the darkness

The yin to the yang

Just fill the blank canvass

With a bloody red stain

[Chorus Again]

Awareness

Desire is a bandit

And thoughts are like thieves

Will they leave empty-handed

It's all up to me

Beautiful Screams

Wrote this about artists protesting with screams of beauty.. Often, the deeper the ugliness, the louder & more beautiful the screams. It may be societal or personal ugliness. i.e. Van Gogh’s ‘Starry Night’ being inspired by the view out his asylum window..

 

Beautiful screams, in nights of despair

While ugliness dreams, with hardly a care

Breeding with light, engulfing with pain

The dark of the night, now tortures the sane

Muffling the cries, with an ironclad hand

The darkness can rise, to conquer the land

With no hope in sight, they swallow their dreams

In the depths of the night, come beautiful screams

Pursuits, Substitutes, & Ghosts

 

I’ve been swinging at shadows

Throwing punches at ghosts

But they’re always behind me

So I never get close

I went chasing a rainbow

Found a big pot of gold

But it’s sure hard to carry

When you’re out there alone

Didn’t bring that much home

I sought the ocean of love

Found my other half first

But there’s never enough

When you’re dying of thirst

So, I looked to the preachers

Had such fine things to say

Thought words were like windows

To some brighter place

But they just got in the way

Finally gave up the chase

 

Stuck

A river above

A river below

I'm in between

With nowhere to go

A stagnant scene

While everything flows

What keeps me here

Trapped like a tree

I don't have roots

So maybe its me

In the Shadows

(Jungian shadow work i.e. reconciling the polarities within and integrating the released psychic energies. Not referring to external gods & demons )

 

A battle was raging

& My soul was unwell

It was reckoning day

Between heaven & hell

 

So, I called up my demons

And I summoned the gods

But I just couldn’t see that

They were never at odds

 

They came to my temple

To be formally wed

But I preached about purity

And divorced them instead

 

They went off in silence

Estranged from each other

& with night setting in

They had to take cover

 

They now seem like ghosts

If they even exist

But there’s noting so real

As the things you resist

 

They wait in the shadows

Until I come to see

The my demons & gods

Are just fragments of me

 

When I’m done casting stones

They’ll come out of hiding

They’ll join hands together

& become one inside me

 

A Soul undivided